Dream

Marital Status: taken

Current mood: quite crappy

Currently needing: a psychiatrist, my boyfriend, food, sleep, going outside, my mommy, money, confidence, my friends

Reasons to be proud: I washed some clothes yesterday…and…got a cute kitten…

Reasons to be unproud (this word exists. I tell you it does): have done nothing constructive today apart from vacuum-cleaning. Unless you consider moving three fanlistings as constructive. Even then, there are still 2 left to take care of before tomorrow. And even more as soon as possible. Which happens to actually be now…So why am I not taking care of them? What’s happening to me? Where is my motivation? I’m not even enough motivated to watch a bloody movie. Hey, kiddo, it’s a movie! It’s fun, entertaining. You don’t even need motivation to watch a movie. Happily, though, my boyfriend is coming. He roxors.

Edit, 5 minutes later: I must admit, though, that going to moderate Celestial and seeing that a spambot has entitled his post “i had a nightmare!! i was blonde!” is quite something to put me in a better mood.

I’m posting this from my boyfriend’s laptop, at his place. I don’t really like using the term “boyfriend”, but I just guess it’s what is most appropriate to define our relationship. We’ve been together for a week and two days, somehow.

Since I came back from the hospital, I have taken the decision to drop all of my classes except one, the one in which I am making a movie with a team of three other people. I didn’t want to drop this one for a couple of reasons. First, I like making movies. It’s entertaining and it keeps me busy. I mustn’t stay locked in my apartment all day long. Then, it would be awful to abandon my team. As I’m going to keep helping them anyway, I’m better making it count, by not dropping the class.

Dropping classes means I have a lot of free time during which I can rest, take care of my kitten, see aforementioned boyfriend, surf the web, take walks, eat delicious ice cream, etc. All of this is doing me good. I feel much less tired and am in quite a good mood.

I have indeed been neglecting my personal site and my fanlistings. I just need to take a little rest, I guess. Spending your entire free time, when you have so much as I do now, on the compuer, all alone, isn’t a nice way to overcome depression.

I just came back from the hospital.

Some shit happened in my life. I started feeling really down, useless and guilty. Yesterday, a friend of mine came to visit—and take care of me. I told him I wanted to go to the hospital, so he took me there, to the emergency.

They decided to keep me at least overnight. They increased my dose of anti-depressants a lot, and added another pill on top of it, to take when needed.

I feel a little better now, but, of course, you don’t just come out of a depression in a few hours.

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